Well, she has won... After years of controlling me my mother has won... You can't trust that bitch or turn your back on her.

This last week she's been giving me money like it was nothing. But you can't take anything from her; or she'll use it against you. No matter what you do she's unhappy, she's an over controlling ugly whore... My father doesn't see this, maybe after everythings said and done she'll realize what she's done and my father will see past her mask... All I know is I can't live with her anymore... Either her and her clone leaves or I do... Even if I have to die.. It's easy I either go out and let myself freeze to death by letting all the liquids in my body freeze into cold hard ice and my fingers turn to black nothing with the rest of me as my lips turn blue, or I could find some strong rope and make a noose and hang my self either severly braking my neck into death or cutting it if it doesn't kill me making sure it's high enough and let me fall to my death... Best yet I have a cliff not to far from my house, at the bottom is tons of rusted cars and a train it would be hard for them to find my body in all of that, if I some how miss it then theres always the ice cold roaring river at the bottom... No matter what cutting isn't working anymore I have to do something... She's done controlling me...